Jurnal 22

You make lists in your head about what you want in a lover, like brown hair and sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humor that actually makes you laugh like you mean it. This and that.

And it's all bullshit.

Because people aren't lists. And I've always wanted to be the person who made someone realize that. I want to come across someone with a list in their head that is nothing like the person I am, and I want to show them what they didn't even know they were looking for. People who think they know what they want are fooling themselves.

Nobody really knows what they want.

Not until it's right in front of them.

Quote (8)

"I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

- John Green (Looking for Alaska, Harper Collins 2005)

Jurnal 21: Bae, 2015!

2015 was the best year of my whole life so far, after 2013 (teuteup). I got everything i want in this year.
Literally everything. :)

Quote (7)

"Sesekali dalam hidup, seharusnya manusia tak usah dinilai lewat angka-angka. Tidak lewat angka presentase di kertas ujian, angka saldo tabungan, angka timbangan berat badan, angka jumlah likes halaman Facebook, angka perolehan suara pemilwa. Ada hal-hal yang tak bisa diangkakan--hal-hal seperti ini. Manusia tak terbuat dari angka-angka, tetapi kebanyakan mereka lupa. Itu sebabnya hidup kita melelahkan dan kita begitu mudah merasa miskin."

- Morra Quatro (What If, GagasMedia 2015)

Jurnal 20

I know I should't love him because I know its not working, and so I convince myself I don't. And then he texts me, and we talk about random things, and then all that logic and convincing myself just dissapears.

Jurnal 19

Sometimes I wonder, why God put the love of my life 647 miles away from me. Why couldn't he be closer? I mean in the end we'll probably be a stronger couple because of the distance but it just sucks. Not being able to hug him when he's sad, kiss him whenever I want, hear his voice and his laugh, sit around and do nothing but talk about pointless things for hours. Those things mean more to me more than anything. And it bugs me when couples who see each other basically everyday complain about never being with their bf/gf or take them for granted when I would give everything i have just to be with him for a few minutes.

Jurnal 18

This is so wrong, but feels so right.

1:36 AM

Jurnal 17

Mungkin aku hanya sudah terbiasa dengan ketidakhadiranmu, sehingga hadirmu terasa ganjil. Entahlah.

9:51 pm

Quote (6)

"Aku berkata padanya saat kami berpisah, "Mau pergi sejauh setengah lingkar planet ini pun, pergilah, if you need to. Tapi jangan menghilang... give me a call."

Dia bilang, "Kalau aku sudah pergi sejauh setengah lingkar planet ini, aku tinggal pergi sejauh setengah lingkar lagi. Biar kembali kepadamu.""

- Morra Quatro (Notasi, GagasMedia 2013)

Jurnal 14

"It's always hard when you realize someone has taken your place. Things won't ever be the same no matter how much you're reassured that they will."

1:35 a.m.