June 18, 2018

Jurnal 28: A Sweet Gbye

It’s so sad how things ended up easily, how we gave up so easily. Yes, people are people and sometimes we change our minds. I still think about you and it’s killing me to see you go after all this time but i’ll take some time. I’ll be okay. I just gotta accept everything.


Since we ended, I have this thought in my head that maybe, at this kind of age. Everything is just really temporary especially when it comes to relationships. It’s funny how I just thought about that now lol but hey we're still young.


You’re very kind and loveable, best partner I ever had so far. But then I realized that maybe, we aren't made for each other. I'm slowly accepting things that we are just so fuggin immature and that maybe that’s why we had this relationship in the first place because we have to learn something. I keep telling myself to don’t cry and stop worrying things and start to focus for a better tomorrow. Whatever happens to the next I’ll always have you in my prayers. Hope you find someone so much better than me. Thank you for everything, d.

April 10, 2018

Jurnal 27: Best Relationship

To be honest i wasn’t looking for anything at all when i met you. Actually, i wasn’t planning on falling for anyone so soon. But then i met you. And that was it.. i guess things just happened. I found you, and i found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you.
It was simple.
It was easy.
And i think that’s how the best relationships begin.
You’re not looking for anything and suddenly you realize you have something.

February 1, 2018

Jurnal 26: Feelin Grateful

You put me back together again when i was broken. You saved me. Thank you, Dega. Loving you was the best decision my heart ever made. You're the best and i couldn't ask for more. I've never met anyone like you. You are the same like me when it comes to loyalty, i don't meet many people like that, people you can trust completely (you know how bad and cruel people nowadays in our generation). I will never understand how someone amazing and sweet and funny and smart as you could ever fall for someone like me, but I got lucky somehow. I'll never forget that either, that you're too good for me, there will never be one single day i take you for granted. You're too perfect. I love you, Dega. I love you more and more everyday. I don't have to worry about you falling out of love with me or if you're seeing someone else, cause i can read it in what you say and see it in your eyes and hear it in your voice that you love me like i love you and i can't even express how incredibly lucky and thankful i am to have you in my life. ♥️

January 17, 2018

Jurnal 25: 30 Little Things I Love the Most About You

  1. You are loyal and never flirt with other girls. (I always know everything. Don’t macem-macem😏)
  2. You speak to me gently and never use rude words. You always respect me.
  3. You never hide something from me. I always know everything. You’re the most honest man i know.
  4. You like to eat and know my comfort food and the best time to get me some. Oh, and you don’t mind to eat the food i have no room for. :p
  5. You have a good memory. You remember the little things: every detail of our first date, everything i said, everything i did, the movies we watched together. You remember absolutely everything.
  6. You are such a loving man, especially when it comes to family. Your relationship with them is so good, it makes me love your whole family even more.
  7. You are generous. You like to give large tips and spend your money for others not because you have fat wallet to show off, but because you’re just a genuinely good man.
  8. When i’m having a bad hair day, you still think i’m beautiful even when i think i look like an abandoned doll in a horror movie. 🙄
  9. You hate people who cheat! *hi five*
  10. You think i’m pretty with makeup on, but think i’m prettier barefaced.
  11. You have a great sense of humour and always make me laugh with your silly jokes.
  12. You don’t mind me messing up your hair in public.
  13. You never forget to send me random “i love you”s and “muaaach”s literally everyday. That little thing warms my chest & always makes me feel loved.
  14. When you want to buy something, you always ask for my opinion cause i am that important to you.
  15. The smell of your body drives me crazy.
  16. You know how to cook well more than me. Sigh.
  17. You do your job not for money, you love it as your passion.
  18. You aren’t extravagant. You know your priority and have clear goals in life.
  19. You proud to be my man and never be afraid to show it everyday.
  20. You call me “wuffy” as if it’s my first name and i’m the only one in the world who owns it. 
  21. You plan out your future with me like it’s the only thing you can ever be sure of.
  22. You know i can be the most difficult person in the world but you still love me for it.
  23. You don’t let go of my hand when you’re driving. My fav part is when you kiss my palm and smile to me.
  24. You never fail to cheer me up in an instant whenever i’m upset. You always know the right things to say and do.
  25. You always ask me how my day was.
  26. We like to share our thoughts (sometimes we argue) about life, religion, history, and anything under the sun.
  27. You never leave problem unresolved more than 24 hours. We’ll fight, but we fix it by talking to each other, by communicating, and that's amazing.
  28. You keep your stuffs securely as much as you can. Everything is in place and organized. Not something i would expect from a guy.
  29. You’re only selfish when it comes to me. You want me all to yourself, but i feel complete freedom knowing i’m all yours.
  30. You bring so much happiness into my life since i met you and i have never wanted to make anyone as happy as i want to make you. ♥️

October 2, 2017

Jurnal 24

He said, "love you so much, babe." and i nearly told him that i loved him so much too, but that wasn't it. I love him more. Not more than he loves me, but more. More than the light, the night, and the stars that shine above us. More than i have ever loved anyone. More and more each passing day.

I love him so much.
I love him too much.
I love him more.

1:51 AM

September 8, 2017

Jurnal 23

Actually sleeping with you is so nice like waking up in the middle of the night and snuggling closer or lazily giving you a kiss or just feeling your arms around me squeeze slightly even tho you're in a deep sleep or hand holding while we both are asleep.. I love those things. Because that's the best type of intimacy, it's not always about sex.


Me suddenly missing you
12:06 pm
Langgur, Southeast Moluccas, Indonesia

August 15, 2017

Quote (9)

"You are very lucky if you have someone to whom you can tell about your bad behaviours without them thinking that you are a bad person, but because they know that what is inside you is purer and more beautiful."

- Nizar Qabbani

July 22, 2017

Jurnal 22

You make lists in your head about what you want in a lover, like brown hair and sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humor that actually makes you laugh like you mean it. This and that.


And it's all bullshit.


Because people aren't lists. And I've always wanted to be the person who made someone realize that. I want to come across someone with a list in their head that is nothing like the person I am, and I want to show them what they didn't even know they were looking for. People who think they know what they want are fooling themselves.


Nobody really knows what they want.


Not until it's right in front of them.

January 31, 2016

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"I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

- John Green (Looking for Alaska, Harper Collins 2005)

December 30, 2015

Jurnal 21: Bae, 2015!

2015 was the best year of my whole life so far, after 2013 (teuteup). I got everything i want in this year.
Literally everything. :)

November 12, 2015

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"Sesekali dalam hidup, seharusnya manusia tak usah dinilai lewat angka-angka. Tidak lewat angka presentase di kertas ujian, angka saldo tabungan, angka timbangan berat badan, angka jumlah likes halaman Facebook, angka perolehan suara pemilwa. Ada hal-hal yang tak bisa diangkakan--hal-hal seperti ini. Manusia tak terbuat dari angka-angka, tetapi kebanyakan mereka lupa. Itu sebabnya hidup kita melelahkan dan kita begitu mudah merasa miskin."

- Morra Quatro (What If, GagasMedia 2015)

August 24, 2015

Jurnal 20

I know I should't love him because I know its not working, and so I convince myself I don't. And then he texts me, and we talk about random things, and then all that logic and convincing myself just dissapears.

July 31, 2015

Jurnal 19

Sometimes I wonder, why God put the love of my life 647 miles away from me. Why couldn't he be closer? I mean in the end we'll probably be a stronger couple because of the distance but it just sucks. Not being able to hug him when he's sad, kiss him whenever I want, hear his voice and his laugh, sit around and do nothing but talk about pointless things for hours. Those things mean more to me more than anything. And it bugs me when couples who see each other basically everyday complain about never being with their bf/gf or take them for granted when I would give everything i have just to be with him for a few minutes.

July 19, 2015

Jurnal 18

This is so wrong, but feels so right.

1:36 AM

November 26, 2014

Jurnal 17

Mungkin aku hanya sudah terbiasa dengan ketidakhadiranmu, sehingga hadirmu terasa ganjil. Entahlah.

9:51 pm

September 7, 2014

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"Aku berkata padanya saat kami berpisah, "Mau pergi sejauh setengah lingkar planet ini pun, pergilah, if you need to. Tapi jangan menghilang... give me a call."

Dia bilang, "Kalau aku sudah pergi sejauh setengah lingkar planet ini, aku tinggal pergi sejauh setengah lingkar lagi. Biar kembali kepadamu.""

- Morra Quatro (Notasi, GagasMedia 2013)

August 5, 2014

Jurnal 14

"It's always hard when you realize someone has taken your place. Things won't ever be the same no matter how much you're reassured that they will."

1:35 a.m.

August 3, 2014

[REVIEW] Bumi

Judul: Bumi
Penulis: Tere Liye
Pernerbit: PT. Gramedia Pustaka Utama
440 halaman, 2014 (Cetakan Ketiga)

Namaku Raib, usiaku 15 tahun, kelas sepuluh. Aku anak perempuan seperti kalian, adik-adik kalian, tetangga kalian. Aku punya dua kucing, namanya si Putih dan si Hitam. Mama dan papaku menyenangkan. Guru-guru di sekolahku seru. Teman-temanku baik dan kompak.

Aku sama seperti remaja kebanyakan, kecuali satu hal. Sesuatu yang kusimpan sendiri sejak kecil. Sesuatu yang menakjubkan.

Namaku, Raib. Dan aku bisa menghilang.

Jadi setelah membaca Kau, Aku, dan Sepucuk Angpau Merah, saya jadi kecanduan baca novel Tere Liye yang lain. Bumi ini novel kedua Tere Liye yang saya baca. Novel ini mengangkat tema yang berbeda dari sebelumnya. Kalau sebelumnya bercerita tentang perasaan, kali ini Tere Liye menghadirkan fiksi fantasi yang indah.

Kisah ini berawal dari Raib (biasa dipanggil Ra) yang dari luar tampak seperti remaja 15 tahun kebanyakan. Gak ada yang spesial. Menurut penjelasan, Ra gak cantik (tapi juga gak jelek), gak pinter (kecuali dalam mapel Bahasa Indonesia), dan gak populer. Namun siapa sangka kalau Ra ternyata punya kekuatan yang dirahasiakannya sejak berumur 2 tahun, yang bahkan kedua orangtuanya pun gak tau kalau Ra bisa menghilang. Hilang dalam artian sebenarnya.

Jujur, awal ceritanya sempat bikin saya merasa bosan karena yang diceritain itu-itu doang. Ra sarapan di rumah - pergi ke sekolah - di sekolah belajar - pulang ke rumah - repeat. Ngebosenin. Tapiii entah gimana novel ini selalu bikin saya penasaran. Kalimat-kalimat di akhir babnya selalu bikin saya bertanya-tanya apa yang bakal terjadi di bab selanjutnya. Nih salah satu paragraf di akhir bab:

"Pagi itu aku sungguh tidak tahu, setelah sarapan bersama yang selalu menyenangkan, beberapa jam lagi kejutan itu tiba. Ada yang tahu rahasia besarku, bukan hanya satu, melainkan susul menyusul. Seluruh kehidupanku mendadak berubah seratus delapan puluh derajat. Perang besar siap meletus di Bumi. Aku tidak bergurau."

Anyway, di sekolah Ra punya seorang sahabat bernama Seli. Berbeda dengannya, Seli selalu tampil modis dan percaya diri. Ra juga punya seorang musuh bernama Ali yang penampilannya selau amburadul dengan rambut acak-acakan. Sampai kemudian sebuah peristiwa secara gak sengaja melibatkan mereka bertiga terperangkap di dunia yang bukan Bumi---dunia lain. Rahasia demi rahasia pun terungkap. Ra tentu saja dengan kemampuan invisible-nya, Seli yang ternyata selain mampu menggerakkan benda-benda di sekitarnya, juga bisa mengeluarkan petir dari telapak tangannya (how cool!), dan Ali yang punya otak cerdas bin genius bin brilian. Ali bahkan pernah hampir meledakkan sebuah lab dengan percobaannya saat akan mengikuti olimpiade fisika. Ditambah lagi kekuatannya yang mengejutkan pada akhir novel yang gak bakal saya ceritain. Baca sendiri yak. :p

Overall, this is a really great novel. Dengan gaya bahasa yang begitu apik thas Tere Liye, yang mampu menceritakan hal-hal yang sebenarnya biasa dan sederhana menjadi luar biasa dan bermakna. Di novel ini dijelaskan sebuah teori bahwa kehidupan di semesta memiliki kehidupan dari dunia yang berbeda-beda. Tere Liye menuliskannya sebagai empat klan, yaitu;


Klan Bumi, tempat kita berpijak, yang dianggap sebagai "Makhluk Rendah" atau "Makhluk Tanah" karena paling primitif ilmu pengetahuannya.


Kedua adalah Klan Bulan yang berada tepat di atas Bumi dan memiliki ilmu pengetahuan yang sangat maju.


Ketiga ialah Klan Matahari yang memiliki kemajuan lebih pesat daripada kedua Klan di bawahnya.


Dan terakhir adalah Klan Bintang yang masih bikin saya penasaran bagaimana kehidupan di Klan ini karena penjelasannya gak begitu jelas.

Btw, di novel ini yang menjadi main setting petualangan Ra dan kawan-kawannya adalah Klan Bulan.

Well, saya gak banyak baca novel fantasi lokal, seringnya terjemahan. Tapi novel Bumi ini bener-bener keren. Recommended banget lah pokoknya. Detail setting dan karakternya bikin cerita ini menarik untuk diimajinasikan. Omong-omong, masih banyak pertanyaan di kepala saya tentang klan-klan lain. Semoga lanjutan ceritanya yang berjudul Bulan cepat terbit yaw. Ehehe.

I gave 4 of 5 stars for this book.

July 26, 2014

Jurnal 13

"I hope
you never
regret me."

12:00 a.m. (Please don't ever think of me as a mistake)
 

July 23, 2014

Jurnal 12: asdfghjkl

I know I hurt you but god fuckin damn you hurt me too. I wasn't the only one. You left too. And we kept coming back and we kept leaving and it just became this endless jumbled dance that had lost its rhythm. I don’t feel regret when I think of you… Just guilt. A lot of guilt.
And now, I just find myself still hoping things can go back to the way they were, before we fucked it all up. I miss you as my bestfriend, I miss you as my bro. I’m sorry I hurt you.

I'm.
sorry.